oh my GOSH!!!!!!

really glad today, guess that i had my most wanted present for ma' birthday.....
while steph was chatting with me this morning, she told me some "news"....yaaya, somebody got the offer letter, i was waiting too for it to come to my doorstep...thinking bout' it, i think i heard the postman just went hours ago, but so lazy to go collect yet

then my heart was beating hard, is it possible??is it??so i was running to go check the letter box...oh my..oh my...GOTTTTT IT!!!yaa, it is the letter from aimst....
my hands straight away became cold and at the same time shaking while opening the letter, wth, why so hard to open?? even now when i typing this blog, my hands still not accustomed to the news........serious man!!!!i got it...i got it...i got it..........

thank god and everything....called mum and dad, keke still sleeping, so didnt wake him up...
p/s: steph, you are my lucky star!!!!!love you much more!!!!!

BiG WorlD, smalL worlD

when I was small, friends I knew were from the same town and many from the same residential area, but we didn’t know that until we saw each other address while filling up some forms for school…….for one true incident, the girl who sat beside me when I was Form four was from the same housing area as me, she just lived blocks away from me!!!! But it was after half of the year had passed, only we knew we live in the same neighbourhood……so then we started car-pooling when going school and tuitions……haha(we all know how to save cost)
woah, I never met her before in my ‘taman’…….how could that be ah?? Unbelievable….. even though I always go to the supermarket, ‘kopitiams’, grocery shops in my housing area……………..….haa

however, last Sunday, which was the day we went celebrate mummy’s day at autocity, I met friends that never seen for 9 years…………………..what a………….don’t know what to say, we know each other only about one week, or can say that we spend one whole week together when we went for vacation in Beijing in year 2000, exactly 9 years ago…………….actually the one who remembers us recognized my bro first…..

he came from behind and tapped keke shoulder, asked ‘have u been to Beijing in 2000’………..when I heard that, I thought he was my bro’s friend, and thought that he went Olympic in Beijing coz I straight away relate Beijing to Olympic….haha
we are stunted…..speechless, for few seconds, and my bro started scratching his head, thinking hard……..really hard while I still getting blurred, thinking about Olympic….????
After much “Haaaa……” and “ohhhhh”……. We managed to identify each other………

wow….what can I say….what if we didn’t have dinner there? What if we go back home straight after dinner coz there was a wonderful cake awaiting us at home(I bought…hehe)? What if I didn’t spend so long a time at the flea market nearby? What if ………………then I don’t think we can met these long long ago friends………he still remembered my nickname that time….’ red apple’….(in chinese)…………indeed, both of us(same age) stretched a lot……..he even taller than my bro…..

Wow……sweet memories

Bye, bloggie

joy and sorrow.....nothing

I was always so naïve, always think that there is only joy in the world, however in the reality, there is more sorrow than joy, some more the sorrow really penetrate deep into my heart, into the core of myself, I can feel that something inside wanna break my heart, something heavy pressing against me, forcing me to accept that this is the truth, telling me not to dream about stuff that won’t happen anyway………..
I felt boring when reading the second book of twilight series, ‘new moon’, especially the first part of the book where edward left bella suddenly………..giving some reason that couldn’t be accept anyhow……..though this kind of sorrow is not because of the same situation, but at this moment I felt it the same……..i m somehow frus at myself why can’t I do something to correct the situation which I know how to do it……hopeless……now

Is this life? What is it?

Ya, what people think of their own life? Do they think that their current life now is soul-satisfying, spiritual, or the other way round which I meant here is material oriented?
Searching for material security, finding for more and more money and affluences, is this kind of life that is longed by most of the people? Is it really so important? Money? What can it do and what it cannot do? But, weel for me, money does can give me lots of stuff that I always wish for and of course help me to complete my course of interest, money can fulfil all my needs in life, apart from that, which is more important, provide a better life for my family……

While I was writing this, I was accompany by the bumming sound of the washing machine, it is really old, more than ten years, it has been here since we moved in to this house, but sad to say, there is nothing that can last forever, it does always give us some unwanted trouble…..so is this all about life….troubles….money…solutions….

Indeed I have read plenty of material regarding different views of people on life…..what they said usually is regarding moral values and virtues which we should apply in our daily life…..fellow-feeling, co-operation, understanding, tolerance…..bla bla bla……but the question here is that: can we really do it the way which is well recognized and agreed by people….

Tough…I can only say that this is tough, or maybe for me only??? I don’t know….everyone wants a peaceful life, happy and perfect… I just ask for something contented, happy, simple, normal and maybe with a little bit of luxury for once in a while…………..is this too much? This depends on personal opinion….

I can change myself to adapt to certain situation, but usually when I got no other choices to take, but I admit I can’t change people’s views of mind to suit the way I think *wish that I could*……. However, one may say that this is difficult but not impossible………………….so what’s the true meaning of life? What is the definition that I was always searching for?? No one can tell me, neither do I, I guess

But what I can do now is that play my own role well…….as my mum and dad’s daughter, my brother’s sister, my friends’ friend and listener, my uni’s student…………..etc etc etc. Is it adequate for me just to be like that….. I am still finding for the answer for this unfathomable question…. Is it because of age or sex, so there are only limited things that I can only do at the present stage, or there are other factors in the other side of life………too deep for me to find out…..far far away from my inner self…

Hope that one day I can find out the right answer for all my doubts……..to clarify, to make sure, to change to be a better self…..and to face the reality

My muet speaking test

Thursday, 7th May was my first and foremost muet speaking test….but something unexpected, unbearable, unhappily happened…hugh!!!!

As most of the people had taken before this kinda stupid test…..should know that it was no longer than half an hour for the whole duration of the test…just two task to be complete and that’s all…

My test slip there stated that my turn is session two so 11am….so me wanna be a good good girl, I reached there 15 mins earlier, to survey the exam hall first…okay it was at the school’s library….but to be truthfully that library is no bigger than my kitchen or maybe plus my tv room……but this is not the main point yet…..after a while being seated there by two ‘uncle’ who called themselves as one of the candidates…….people started coming in…..

So I waited …..waited……and waited…and the teacher there said that some didn’t turn up yet..so decided to waited for them for another half and hour…..so to be accurately….the test started about 12pm….when they did the briefing and want us to sign on some papers….

Unfortunately my group was the last group…..and my name was the last one in the list…as there were only three examiners, so they can only invigilate one group per time…so then I had to wait for lots lotssss of half and hour before my turn…..then what did I do to kill the time….i read the NST papers again and again…and conteng the paper too….for the Sudoku and spot the difference….haha….the teacher in-charged there did nothing to stop me too….and I just continue my conteng….haha…

Then the malay teacher started chatting with us…..always the same question la….where are you from….doing what course…but again no one heard about my ulu ulu uni…*sobs many many times dy*……but he ask beforehand ady for his m.c., aiyooo and one more thing….he started boasting about his studies…(kononnya study kat usm..master degree…nak jadi pensyarah lepas habis pengajian….juga ajak pergi lawat dia dan boleh bawa jalan-jalan…dengan dia punya big big bike la)….is he really wanna help us to pass that boring hours??or he wanna soothe our mood….pleaseeee me not nervous but very impatient….!!!!!!!

Guess what time I entered the hall….??? Nearing 1.30pm…..wasted about three hours there….and I am super hungry too, coz the cold air from the air-cond keep blowing at me……………………………………... when my keke came and fetch me, I complained so much and hehee…he brought me to have lunch at secret recipe lo……..

~sense oF diRecTiOn~~

Since I was small I was brought around anywhere my mum and dad went, then I would sat at the passenger seat while watching my mum drove marvelously………so then I thought driving is such a enjoyable moment……whenl I got my driving license, I started driving around, this time I switch place with my mum, I will drive them wherever they wanna go, till then I found that I myself do not have sense of direction…..HAH, driving with no sense of direction, I may take the wrong way and finally end up in some place that I certainly don’t want to be…………….

So I was thinking one day: should I married a postman? I was standing at the doorstep and saw a postman stopped by my house pushing in a whole bunch of letters and brochures into the letter box……..maybe this is a good idea after all……….they know all the places even the name of the street, this is a good thing in which I don’t possess, he can be always at my side whenever I get lost in the middle of nowhere, to save me!!!….haha…..does it make sense: MARRY A POSTMAN DUE TO LACK OF SENSE OF DIRECTION……….

Then I was thinking thru another angle, what’s the point the sense of direction if in real life I don’t have a good direction leading to my future life, future jobs or even my life partner? Guess that that is more important than what I am lacking currently……after all, I can get help from the GPS device…..HAH, another creation of the science and technology…..it certainly meant for people like me who can never remember the way to go to some place though I had been to that place more than a thousand times….

AHEM, so now the matter of marriage should be put aside since I am still young and way to go to enter my degree programme…….at the same time searching my true self and of course my own sense of direction…..

wOrKing experience.... my longest holiday ever

so faaaarrrrr, me had worked at kumon centre for i guessed been one month plus......until end of february, so now me working odd jobs at home.....yea......mostly like a maid....uhuhu..

okay, let me explain about what jobs have i done......
first of all.....i mark paper for my ex-teacher, well, it is kind of a lot sometime, $0.20 per piece....so usually about few hundred i will earn per month

AND, other than that, type some documents for her, actually exercises for students, &2 per set...for my mummy, she did contribute some for me...haha, i did sorting and filing for all the bills and bank statements....so she paid me $10......including daddy too.....whenever we go out to eat, i am the one who keep the change...till then, other time i just do housework, and mummy bring me to some nice restaurants, such as swensen, japanese food(my love*..........haha
thats practically how my life is now.........quite okay, i think i am really holidaying now, i mean the mood........